Thursday, March 1, 2012

MS Warlord

I worry a lot more than I used to.
I'm a planner and sometimes MS makes me reluctant to plan.
I HATE that about MS.
How do I plan for an attack that could strike at anytime, with anything?
Maybe my legs will start going again and they've felt weak lately.
I really am I'm worried. Should I start carrying a cane in my car?
After my Reiki massage the lady pointed to problems in my knees.
Maybe that is where it will be.
Maybe it is there now, it feels like something is off.
Maybe it's all in my head.
Then there is this fog. It settles in and basic things like friends and places and life changing events just aren't there anymore. I don't know why it happens or how long will it last and it worries me.
Also, while we're talking about it, why is my nose tingly?
And why does my vision get blurry?
Is it low blood sugar or MS or my thyroid?
Am I'm I just tired and stressed?
Maybe I'm getting a cold.
Do I put too much pressure on being productive and not enough on caring for myself?
Why am I so broken and how can I fix all of this?
Do I need to call the doctor?
I really don't want to call the doctor.
I want to be ok.
No, scratch that! I want to thrive.
I want to be the girl on the cover of magazines proclaimed as the one that beat the shit out of MS and is now helping others do the same. I want to start a war.
A war within myself.
They'll call me the MS warlord.

You can support the fight by joining TheyCallMeHypo at the April 14th MS Walk South Sound. If you are near by we'd love to have you join the team, if you are far away please consider being a virtual walker. We've already met our goal this year but are still raising funds. Click here or here to learn more. 

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